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Thursday, May 24, 2007 @ 5/24/2007 12:05:00 AM
when u r separated with sum1 for sometime, differences start to develop.. like the edges of a puzzle, somehow it no longer fits like it did.. cos u make new friends and live in a different environment.. u laugh at different things, about different topics and around different people... i realli wanted to be do sth.. so i went up to some1 i feel who knows u more than i do.. cos u all are so close tgt.. maybe i was relli wrong to do so.. only den do i know tt actually there r so many things which i dun know.. yup i m away from ur world, so i tries to pull closer.. i laugh but u cant get in, just like u laugh so much with ur friends about things that only u all knows... but i know its cos u all had been tgt for so long.. and i m happy u make such good frens.. but u dun understand i had spent a long time with my frens too.. tts y we hab sth to laugh abt.. no1 can live in the world of the other, we can only try to mix in.. and i tried hard to, though i m not always successful.. i wanted so much for u to stay.. right from the start.. but i can feel that the hand i m pulling is struggling to break free... no1 knows how afraid i m that this hand will just force open and push me aside.. so i try to do it the way u want.. how happy i c u when ur friends said the same thing u feel.. so i decided to let go bit by bit.. so i wanted to be like ur friends, respect ur decision.. cos i know u can make the right choice.. and i said all tt i can.. but u duno how sad i was when i walked in the room but didn c u.. u wunt want me to say sth u dun like abt ur friends, just like i want to do so for my frens.. and i tried to be very careful with how i do it.. but in the end it still makes u feel sth else.. many a times i really duno wat to say.. i dun mind my efforts not being seen.. i told ppl tt i felt wud get close u.. abt a fren i hab,who she is, just joined in, how she looks, do tok more to her.. but i am sad tt they dun show it.. and u dun feel it.. i am sure u can get along well if u want to stay on.. cos we are ppl with common interest.. we click better.. i cant mix in the new friends u made, cos there is no chance to get tgt.. but u can mix with the new friends i made, cos there is still a long way down the road... i believe in u.. but u dun believe tt i relli do so.. mr goh taught me sth.. life is like an equation.. with a constant and a variable.. the variable is the environment, while the constant can be ur attitude.. |