took a rest during the weekends, which is the 1st and last weekend to relax after the cts i think. given the i-know-what grades for cts, i cant afford to slack. if the aim of the cts is to demoralise you and make you work harder,  i think it has succeeded in the 1st 1. yes will be planning up a timetable, which restricts wat i m doing at every time of the day. i need that, though i know i will not 100% follow it, cos i need to be pushed or i will just sit there and get rolled over. LOL copied from xw's quote in her blog.

saturday went shopping with mum and sis. ended up buying non-GSS stuff. lol. had our favourite ichiban sushi. salmon cheese is simply irresistable! 

den went to fen's house. my present was super belated. sorry!! hope you like it =) and forget to take a pic of the prez and us. haiz. we sure crapped a lot esp abt the ecs. woohoo! 

after that went junction8 for class outing in cafe cartel. shall upload the photos aft lari sent me. and i must mention this- wat scandal that started with lari alwas end up with me! haha duno y.

co yst. it sure is boring to be 1 of ur kind in that instru. no1 to tok to and all stressed up by the solo parts. boooo!! on the lighter note,  ninet wants to go for the njco concert!! ok and fen and xiangling too. even after telling them the songs and that the quality would most prob be............... they still want to go. and wats best is they all said its to support me. WOW! its really wonderful to have such frens and juniors. really!! haha and my whole family will be there too. though i half forced them to. haha. cos i want them to be there at my last concert. no matter how good or bad it would be. ok i know a lot of ppl are very pessimistic abt the concert, but come on, its the last 1! let's just embrace it, forget about things like we will just throw face. if we dun think it this way, maybe it would be better! =)

(and of cos its the 1st time my mum is going to my jc. definitely hope its the last la! cos heard if fail subject needa go for ptm *pray* NOOO!!!!!)

and i guess i make ppl feel like i m a stay-home-girl who dun go anywhere. ecp, movie, gathering or even outside to mug. haha cos i feel so too. this year is totally different from last year. its never easy to strike a balance between a good daughter, a student who needs to take her A level in half a year time but still keeps failing her subjects and a fren who goes out with others to de-stress. simply cos i just get guilty going out, to anywhere. yes i know it will be alright if i manage my time well, but sorry i dun have the ability to. so from reluctant i turn to not even going. and others stop asking me too, cos i will just give an ans that will just disappoint them (or make them pissed off) anyway.

when have i began to be so pessimistic? i duno. perhaps after failing all the subjects even after working so hard. perhaps after every1 is all ready to score their As while i m still struggling to even pass. perhaps when the whole world is telling you that you are studying in the wrong way but you cant find the right 1. perhaps when every1 is asking abt your future which you feel that it is just so bleak.

right thats it. sorry for all these. i cant make myself write anything motivational now. and the stay-home-girl is going to plan up her timetable (which should have been done before the holidays started).

bye bye.